In this dream many different things happened but I’ll write down the only one I remember….

I was at school by the outside building. I was walking with Jordy and Tessa by me, when all of a sudden a bright light came out of nowhere. I suddenly felt very happy and then a pretty blond girl in a white dress walked out of the light held her hand to me and said (somewhere on the line of) “take my hand and come with me to a land where you will feel no pain. You will be free forever”. I reached out my hand because it felt like the right thing to do. I took hers and started to walk. I looked back and saw my body change my skin went pure white, my hair grew a foot and went platinum, and my lips went ruby red, and my outfit changed a black dress. I watched as my body fall and was caught by Jordy. I turned away and looked at the light when my grandma Linda and grandma Connie walked out. My grandmas gave me a hug and told me not to follow the blond girl, that it was not time to go, that I couldn’t give in. They pulled me back to my body and I fell in. I woke up and watched my skin go back to normal and them I passed out.

I woke up later in the hospital. I looked around me and I saw my mom, Julie, my father, and Jordy. They were all asleep in their chairs. It looked like they had all been there for a while. My eyes were starting to clear I could see a little better. I looked around again and this time saw in the corner my grandma Connie. She smiled and blew me a kiss, then walked away through the wall. I blinked and layed down.

I tried to grab a glass of water but accidentally spilled it on my mom. She screamed and jumped up. She had startled everyone else and they all woke up. The next thing I knew I was being hugged so tight I thought I was gonna suffocate. We talked for a while and I found out that they found my father right after it happened and that it has been about 2 weeks.(1)

When I went back to school it looked like everyone was afraid of me. I found out that everyone could see the girl and saw my when I walked out of myself. Some people had pictures of it on there phone. After a while it got back to normal at school, but it changed a lot at home. The biggest change was that my father didn’t leave me out of his sight. He moved here to be closer. I stayed at my father’s house once a week, grandpa came on Sundays, we had pizza one a week at grandmas, and once a week I watched a movie with my mom and Julie and every time I could I went and spent time with Jordy. I always felt happy and everything just started to get easyer so I didn’t need to study so much so it gave me a lot more free time. (Do keep in mind that in the last part of my dream (from the 1) it got really weird again.)

Hihi. Another year has past and many things has happened.

I’m in a different school and this one is in Dutch. It’s still odd to go to school and listen to your lesson and it be in a different language then what you’re used to. I have lots of new friends. Sometimes it’s hard for me to say what I want because they don’t understand English and there are still many words that if I hear it I understand it but then later can’t remember how to say it.

I still haven’t heard from my father. I’m starting to worry about him, but I miss him more then anything besides my sister.

I’m learning to be a stronger person. If I didn’t like something I just hid it in the back of my head. I thought bottling everything up made me stronger but it has made me weak, and I’m learning how to deal with it.

When I first got here I had a boyfriend named Sinan. He (and his 3 brothers and 2 cousins and bla bla bla) came from Iraq. I thought he was a great person and I was going out with him for 6 months, and I thought I knew him but I was so wrong. I spent every day with him; we would leave the school and go to the city. I would get home at about 10pm. We would just find a place to sit and we would just talk about everything. Then he started to get controlling, I wasn’t allowed to go to my friends, he always knew where I was. I did not see this as a problem till my mom pointed it out. And all I did then was get mad at her. Well to make the long story short, they were right from the beginning.

On a happier note my cats are growing so fast that its scaring me. We still have to find a home for 2 of them, we just have way too many for this house.

Well I’m gonna go now. Bye bye

As you know my birthday is on the 31st, and i fear my father won’t try to contact me. On a happier note, I’ll be setting off my first fireworks on my birthday, and i called my best friend yesterday and I wait for an email from her. yay!

hi hi again. I’m actual writing but only for a moment because i have a test tomorrow and i need to study.
all my friends yunie(Indonesia) ,kan zining (china) ,Elly (Bulgaria) ,and the nice guy (Africa) say hi.Ive got friends all over the world.where learning Dutch together so we can communicate with each other a little.its better then before.

to mine father:if you see this pleas comment i would like to talk to you.

naar mijn family:hoe gaat het?ik will zie jij oma op donderdag en jij opa up saterdag.

everyone:doei

Well it’s been over a year since i last posted and yet I’m still the same. Just a year older. As you all know I have moved to Holland. Lost friends, gained friends, and did it again. My biggest problem with the move was I lost my cats Gandolf and Spazz. But that was before and this is now. I’m happy here. I have family, 4 cats, and dmet.

As always I’m bored and I’m the only one in the house who’s not about to pass out. I go to school to learn Dutch. I’m also gonna have to learn 8 years worth of history in (hopefully) 1 year. I’m having a busy year, yet hey!.. It’ll be fun. Well i just wanted to say hi to you all. So hi!!! Hopefully I’ll write again in the next year. Don’t get your hopes up. :D

I left a boy I liked named Brian to go out with Yal. But now that Yal and I are over I went out with him again, but I met this new boy named Auston and started to like him. So finaly I broke up with Brian to go out with Auston. Well, the last couple of weeks i’ve ben having mixed thoughts, and yesterday I decided that it’s Brian that I want to be with.

Hellooooo out their.I’m gana see yal!*dose a little dance.*I’m gana see yal.

I’m sorry.I’m bored, tiered, and hungry.not a good mix for me.besides i miss yal an I’m yalking to him I’m so tired.
goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood byyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
:D

Now i’ll say more about Yal….hes a nice young man arround my age. I like him and I think hes hot. Hes funny and I like his moustash. I like it when he gets his accent. Hes realy smart so he can help me in school and with my spelling. Im hopping that we’ll get to know each other better. Ill write some other day because I need to consentrate on Yal and holding myself up otherwise I will fall over.

Oh and yesterday was one of my best friend Melene’s birthday. she turned 7. She is my cousin.

I seem to have found someone that I like… Hes smart, hot, makes me laugh ( yes in a good way). Hes fun to just talk too and you all know him.. can u guess .. Yes YAL its you! I been waiting for a while for you to actaully ask me out, and you did .. i was begening to think you wouldnt.

Ok in response.. I like your hair …. an yes I know that teen-angst well .. im not perfect either and i dont expect you to be, just be you .. Your fun to talk to , you are funny.. we have some in comon.. and im sure we will find more as time goes on. And there will be time. .. Have faith

As you shoud know I have 2 cats, a boy(gandolf) and a girl (spazz); well my friend mikey has 2 (boy) cats. One is a fighter (he is white), and the other wants sex( he looks like a cow). Yesterday I found out how all the cats were thinking. While the white cat fought Gandolf the cow one tried to get in the hous for spazz and that didn’t work because the white one got locked in its house. Then the cow went to make friends with Gandolf and he wouldn’t let the cow near Spazz. There is more to this story but i’ll tell you later